Yesterday was a rather fun day, despite the soaring heat in Cambridge (no I’m not being sarcastic!) incurred on the way to work yesterday morning. We were all surprised, as it didn’t seem like three weeks since I was there last, but it had been! Mornings are busier than afternoons, and this was no different!

After leaving Milton, back to Cambridge, but off the bus at Chesterton Lane, and around to Shire Hall to pick up some timetables that I had left for me to uplift. After that, citi5 back to town, then changed to a citi1 for the next part of the trip. As a few of the passengers from the back got off, one of them asked ‘have I seen you on tv?’ Nope, not me… not unless that old cctv footage of me running into the newly-installed automatic doors at Dundee bus station early one morning has made it onto YouTube… but seriously, while questioning is a lot more rare down here, they are usually a bit more refined than some of the more cruder things that I’ve heard in my lifetime.

Anyway, popped in to see auntysarah, and as ever, she beat me to posting the story of our meet to her journal. We spent half an hour or so around the back, in the warm, with the sun reflecting off the fishpond. It was a very civilised way to spend half an hour, just moments away from the hustle and bustle of Hills Road, Mill Road, and Cambridge Railway Station.

So, after that, went for the 1640 26 bus back to Royston, which comes down Hills Road for the college users, so a very easy walk around the corner. Got home, C got in just seconds after I did, and I then had a further kitchen experiment with some noodles and sweet chilli sauce.

The highlight of today so far, I’ve cooked mozzarella cheeseburgers (yes I cans has!), and a further stir-fry, this time self-cook Chow Mein. Also, another soft toy has arrived, it’s a pink stress ball shaped like a pig, a reward from Pigsback – I might save up for the cuddly one, but that will take a while more, as most of the 200 points needed came from a signing-up reward.

So, we are having a quiet day now, but getting a delivery of groceries this evening, and may be out tomorrow. Monday and Tuesday I am not planning on doing too much, but Tuesday night, I am travelling up north to spend a few days in and around Dundee. Caroline is going to be driving up north Friday into Saturday, and we will meet somehow on Saturday, as we’re going to a double birthday party (C’s side of the family) on Saturday in Angus. Sunday – well, I’ve left aside a trip I’ve organised for the Anglia Bus Forum, along with a few other offers, so we can travel south in the hired car, and I may well take some more of the stuff down from my flat in Dundee, things I could not manage in a bus or train. Might get the chance to pop into Lathalmond on the way down, who knows - we'll see how things go on the day.

Longer term, June C will be away most of the time, so I will be doing some work around moving out of my flat in Dundee – I plan to leave at some stage of July. This is likely to be intermixed with days here and there too, as times change. In July and August, I would like to do a bit more work on top of what I’ve been doing recently, and ramp things up gradually once more. We’d then hope C would have a date for her surgery, and we are looking at early-mid autumn for that. After that, and once C is back in Royston recovering, I’d hope that my mind and body will both be ready for more regular hours and work, but we shall see. This has been said, assuming nothing else changes, ha ha!

(Me on TV? Well, there are some times I feel like someone (Beadle’s replacement) is going to pop out of a bush and say ‘You thought you’d came here to do xxxx,’ LOL)

It’s a wonderful day here in Royston – if a little windy. I forgot to mention yesterday that I was able to get my prescription for the 10mg Citalopram, and started off them last night.

I also forgot to mention (given that I was shattered on the day in question) that 30th April was our 13 month anniversary, and C had to point it out to me that evening. I still count these things, but once it’s over a year, the time seems to fly by even faster.

I’ve been thinking quite a bit over the last day and a bit. It’s kind of like a repeat of how things were in 2001-2 in my life now. Then, I finished a job I’d enjoyed (aside from the management), ended up in hospital, got suicidal, new year, anti-depressants, spring and summer has some good times and some bad times. Then, in the autumn, things got really good really quickly, and I was able to build on stability in preparing to transition (which then happened in 2004). This time around, it’s almost the same, except I wasn’t suicidal. The hospital visit (this time) was very much pre-planned, and there was a positive outcome to it (rather than me getting out worse because no reason for it was found, so blame it on stress etc.) So where am I going with this? It’s because while things at the moment include some things that have to be done (i.e. moving out of my flat in Dundee, C losing weight, surgery and the rest), the really good times will (hopefully!) be coming later in the year. I can wait, calm and try and avoid stressing too much over the coming weeks. We’ve got a fair bit planned for this month, and we shall see how things pan out.

There is also my new location. Having been around the area for a bit now, it’s a large kind of step change, a bit like when I moved to London in 1999. Lots of new people and friends to see, lots of new shops, new areas and places to discover. As regular readers know, I’d like stability in my life, but I also like to do what I can, while I can. Regulars also know that I don’t just sugar-coat problems, or pretend that they do not exist, but I am genuinely happy with life at the moment. OK I’m tired or upset on occasions, and that isn’t going to pull me down too much. I want to enjoy the good times too. While they come intermittently at the moment, I am confident that I can build on things over the coming weeks and months, really settle down with C, support the conclusion of her transition, and then be there together for whatever next year throws at us. Things will straighten out, and I am looking forward to it already.